Date: Mon May 1, 2000 5:45 pm

Subject: I've Seen Hell, And Anything Else Is Heaven.

Dear xxxxx and everyone else who has written me.,

Sorry I haven't gotten back, to intense on my movie pick's. I truly want you all to know, how much your letters today have meant to me. REALLY. Yes, I do know IM my own best audience. I just love me. I don't have low self esteem, do I you wise guy's???? I truly try to mix everything. Yes, I respond when people truly need help, I spend time and energy every single day, trying to help people recover., and I also respond with laughter. I guess because I was truly so unhappy, when I was taking drug's, and in withdrawal. I wish you guy's could have seen how very sick I was.

Yes, there are day's when humor say's it best Jan, no pun intended. I remember helping you also, I mean real serious help, when you needed it. Gloom, and doom, in my humble opinion, just spreads more gloom and doom. Sure everyone is hurting, but if you just try to not focus on how bad you feel, the time will go faster, and I promise you, you will feel better. Just like a funny movie, you wish it would not end. We here, wish withdrawal will end, but not focusing on it, and getting outside of yourselves, will make the time pass quicker. Gotta split. Nurse Group now, Whoopee!!!!!!!!!........ And with the way IM going here, IM going to be late!!!!! more later..............

Love

Blondie.