Date: Thu Jun 24, 1999 8:13 pm

Subject: Re: 'The secret of life...(it's long!)

Dear ******:

For me, the most important thing that has come of all this is the closeness that I have with the Lord. I was totally on the wrong path in my life, and made many horrific mistakes. And, even through the first 18 months of my withdrawal, I was totally trying to do this on my own, rather than putting it in the Lord's hands. I was able to do without benzos and alcohol, and hold down a job etc. etc. etc., but I had no peace inside, and I was still having residual problems with my health, my ability to concentrate, etc.

I really only started getting truly well after I prayed a prayer in desperation "Lord, I am putting the entire mess in your capable hands! I don't know what to do on my own" Immediately, I knew that for me I needed to stop going to MD's looking for an answer, and to concentrate on natural means. And, I have gotten better every day since that moment. Here's to learning hard, but important, lessons!

Hugs, Carol