Date: Sat Apr 28, 2001 11:05 am

Subject: Cathy D......awesome attitude!!

Cathy,

I read your response and let me tell you, you really

have a great take on all of this right now!! You are

so right and we all do get sucked in to our feelings

during w/d and it is so hard to tell what is real and

what is manifested by w/d. I was pregnant during this

ordeal and it was totally unbearable at times.

I didn't know if I was vomiting because of the baby or

if my suffering was more intense because of my

condition and I was losing it trying to put my finger

on it all the time...is it or isn't it...worse or

better!! UGH!!! I was afraid if I blamed the w/d for

everything I would make the symtoms last longer and

more severe and if I didn't blame the w/d I would

obsess that I was permamnently damaged by the drugs or

the way I just quit taking them.

As the symtoms lessened, I was able to see that it was the w/d

because then I could see how my body reacted to

different stimulus...whether it be hormones or sugar.

What got me through the pain and NOT running into

traffic was telling myself over and over again how the

worse I felt the more I was healing because my brain

was SCREAMING for the drugs. Good for you

honey...keep up the good work!!

Many Hugs,

Diane